Am I weird?

I've decided that I can only live in one of three relationships. It's hard coming to terms with extreme fetishism when you can't find someone to live it with you. Maybe through this post, someone will see it and decide they'd like to live like this. And most don't read past the first because they think I'm just some freak, but I'm really not. Just read all please. First. I would find a man who decided to claim me. I mean this literally, because I'm having a hard time accepting that I'm bi. I mean, he'd literally have to inbox me telling me I belong to him and be very direct and forceful. He'd have to tell my fat ass that no one else could have me, then start making plans to move me in with him and take care of me, and not take no for an answer. I'm very malleable to influence, so it would need to be tough. Until I moved in, he would have to demand photos and such, which I would give. After I moved in, he would have to be forceful and conquer me, because again, accepting being bi is hard. He'd have to give me absolutely no choice in the matter. Grab my head and direct me down. Push me over the bed and fuck me stupid. He'd have to make me his complete bitch forever. But there couldn't be a day that passed without him fucking me, or I might break the spell. I would have to be his permanent fuck puppet. Here's the second way of life. I lead the relationship completely. In this scenario, the woman in the relationship completely submits to me in every way. Whenever she is home, she would wear no clothing at any time, ever, regardless of company. She would give all power to me over her heart, mind, and body. She would have zero say in what happens to her daily, and be completely free use. If I have friends over who want to fuck her, all they need to do is bend her over and fuck her. She would understand that she is my beloved property. Third scenario This is a completely female led relationship. She would love and adore me, and never want to leave me, but keep me locked in permanent chastity. She would go to great lengths to make sure that I never see another nude woman again. Child filters on internet, phone, etc. She would never, ever, EVER show herself naked to me. She would either fuck tons of guys in the house and behind my back, or she would have a live in boyfriend that she used to make me super hot and jealous, but with my dick locked up, I can never cum again. Making me sit outside the door and listen to them fuck, telling him she loves him and wants his babies, etc. It would be a complete forced loss of my sexuality forever. She would have to commit to this being permanent. It would become a full time job making sure I never cum or even see slightly revealing clothes on women ever again. She should prioritize making sure I die of old age never again being sexual from the time I meet her, but being forever turned on. She should also bring her friends over constantly to make fun of my already small, but shrinking dick. It would be total humiliation for me. But, who am I kidding. I'll never find this.