Clothed vs. Naked

This is once again a reflection of my own experience on this site over the past few years. When I first began on this site, I only posted a few pictures of myself wearing clothes until I got more comfortable with the site and the people visiting my page. It wasn't too incredibly long before I began considering uploading a few naked pictures of myself to go along with my clothed pictures. I was happy at first when the two full body nude pictures that I posted to my profile were approved and allowed to coexist with my several clothed pictures. After many months I began thinking my profile could use a change in the order of my pictures since I thought there could be a better order to my pictures adorning my page on here. Since I could not find a way to change the order without deleting my pictures and starting over again and uploading the pictures in my desired order, I deleted most all of my clothed and two naked body pictures. Immediately after deleting them, I re-uploaded my pictures in the order that made the most sense to me and gave my page the look that I was hoping for. To my disappointment, I discovered that the same exact full body pictures that were once approved were this time not approved by the admin of this site and taken down. I tried uploading the pictures probably a dozen or more times in hopes to have at least a few full body nude pictures in this "nudist" site. Every single time the pictures were not approved and taken down by the admin. I find it ironic that every single picture that I've posted where I am wearing clothes has been approved and allowed to exist on my profile. At the same time, my full body nude pictures have all been disallowed (even though they abide by all of the picture rules posted on this site as guidelines). Long story short, it has been very frustrating and very disappointing that I am not allowed to fully be myself on my own page on this "nudist" site. What goes through my mind as my once approved pictures are rejected by this site? Well, a flood of emotions have bubbled to the surface. My own journey into nudism began with me feeling very embarrassed and ashamed of my body. My body issues were so severe that I would not want to be seen shirtless, and I could never in a million years ever imagine a day where I would prefer to be naked. It just wasn't in me to have confidence in my own body and be comfortable with being in my own skin. I made a decision that I would push myself out of my comfort zone and continually be naked and allow my body to be seen no matter how embarrassed or ashamed I may feel. Over the years, this approach worked and allowed me to reach a point where I don't feel embarrassed or ashamed of my own skin. I know I'm not the most attractive person in the world, but I now accept my entire body and I'm comfortable with people seeing me for who I am underneath. I've made significant strides in combating the extreme shyness that has plagued me since I was very young. Yes, I still struggle with being shy a lot of the time, but I definitely have gotten a lot better. When growing up, I was rejected by peers a lot because I wasn't cool and popular. I was the "nerd" or "geek" of the class who was always interested in learning. I know I probably shouldn't feel this way, but when my naked body pictures are rejected I feel like I'm being rejected all over again by my peers. I start to question myself. I wonder "do they reject my pictures because I'm not good looking enough, not popular enough?" Adding to the disappointment of being rejected over and over again is the fact that I've seen other profiles on here with similar looking poses, so I can only assume that it isn't the angle of the picture that is objectionable. The more time I spend on this site, the more I see bias present within this site and the powers that manage it. This very idea of bias may morph into its own blog topic in the future, but maybe I'll just push down the feelings of disappointment deep down into my own soul. I have since thought of just giving up trying to post my naked body pictures to this site. I find myself amazed that a site focused on promoting the interests of nudists worldwide would deal such continued rejection to one of its members. Maybe I'm the only one who finds it ironic that all my clothed pictures make it through to my page, while all of my full body naked pictures don't. Isn't it the ability of posting naked body pictures which makes this site unique and different from facebook? Facebook has no problem with me posting all of my clothed pictures on my facebook page. So the question becomes, what makes this site unique if it doesn't allow me to be myself and post my naked pictures? It is not my intent to bash this site. I do believe that the potential of this site to bring like-minded people together is still there. This is just a single person's perspective, so maybe I'm just one of the unlucky souls that just can't go through life without being rejected over and over again. Who knows? UNT.