Loneliness is becoming more and more difficult to bear

Loneliness is becoming more and more difficult to bear Loneliness is becoming more and more difficult to bear For some time now, loneliness has been more and more difficult to endure for a few years, almost all the time I'm alone, despite the fact that I've tried to change it, one still without success, which makes me start to believe that I don't deserve love, it's also very hard for me to overcome my fear, because most of the relationships I've been in were not serious, to tell the truth, in my life I've been in love 3 times and I've always been the first guy of a woman, which makes me afraid I am not going to be able to satisfy women, among other things, that's why my relations with carpets were mostly sloppy and usually not very diverse, most often under the cover of night without light, I'm a bit ashamed to admit it, but the lack of experience torments me terribly, although I have loved spending time naked for a long time, I can only do it alone and I haven't told anyone with my loved ones about it, I dream of meeting a woman who will show me what it's like to be with A real woman