"Ugh, not you. You are a time waster"...

What a world we live in. In here, on this website, we escape from reality, because of one thing or another. Supposedly, we stick to our true selves while here. At least, we are supposed to. Was told, over and over, that the nudist community was a nice one. Now, I knew it was a lie. But, still, I believed it, because for the most part, it is true. As for someone, like myself who has a hard time trusting people, it takes a long time to have that trust of others but, a short time to break it all down. Today, I was just being my normal, friendly self, or at least trying to. I pmed someone who said that anyone could pm them. Only to be told, "Ugh, not you. There is a group that has your handle listed as a time waster." I was taken aback. Me, a time waster? I don't think I am.. I try not be. Wasn't really explained to me how I was one. I think we all are time wasters, as we are in here to waste a little time. But, I guess there are those who are here day and night, with nothing else better to do. But, I digress. I was tremendously hurt by what was said. I can't help it that I try to be friendly. I can't help it if I am bad at talking to people. I can't help it if my life is boring. I can't help being the person that I am. But, I at least try. I am trying to be more social, despite the fact that it doesn't work. I am trying to work on my anxiety, even though, it doesn't work. I am trying to work on the issues that have plagued me for a very long time, even if they don't work. I guess I should add this to the list of reasons why I shouldn't exist.. with two of those reasons being that I am ugly, and that I'm disabled. I will forever be alone.. So, whomever reads this, if you don't see me for a while, this is why. But, I guess its good to know how people really see me and think of me. What a world we live in.. .